This poem was written when grief had overcome me when I was rejected to be part of a fellowship that I dearly wished to be in.
I entered into the banquet hall,
On tables were foods and drinks displayed,
With satin curtains flowing each side,
I wondered at the pleasant sight.
I moved towards one of the tables,
But received a rebuke, strong and hard,
My heart ached and I was troubled,
“Send her away..send her away”..said many.
“Send her away..send her away…she doesn’t belong,
This isn’t her family..send her away”..said many.
I looked at those eyes,
They understood not my plight,
I kept silent and took a step behind
Distant was my Lord…why?…I wondered !
Why was I called a stranger,
Why wasn’t I allowed to belong,
All that I desired was to get in,
Become a part of that family as a sibling.
After all, wasn’t the sweet fragrance of food,
That had attracted me thus far,
I questioned those standing,
“Why were all those displayed openly?,
When it wasn’t meant to be given to me.
Why can’t I become a part of your family,
Why not welcome this stranger lovingly,
I stood sobbing, sobbing right there,
I was determined not to return elsewhere.
Why wasn’t my sincere thirst considered?
Why wasn’t my hunger satisfied?
Why not take me in as i am,
Why was i forsaken, I wondered !
Then a voice as sweet as the rustling wind,
Whispered something into my ears,
I was thrilled and faith sprang up,
I announced something loudly and all eyes began staring me.
I said, “even the little pups eat,
the crumb that falls from the Master’s table”.
Despise not Naaman, despise not Naaman, i said,
He proved much more faithful than Gehazi.
Still hearts doubted,
Some said, “How can she be trusted?”
It broke me .. and I fell prostrate,
Surrendered it all … I understood it..yet was desperate !!
Then appeared my Lord,
Held my hands and politely He spoke,
“O woman, great is your faith,
Be it done as you wish.”
I jumped for joy,
Did He really consider taking me in,
I marveled at His selfless love,
That was beyond all limitations.
I smiled at Him and He at me
He held my hands and
That’s how I was added in..!!!