A part of me – a struggle to be whole hearted Disciple

A part of me loves others, a part of me is self seeking;

A part of me wants to pray for others, a part of me wants only good things to happen to me;

A part of me wants to be worn out serving others,  a part of me grumbles when I do not receive love (or when i believe i deserve more);

A part of me wants to live with what the Lord provides, and a part of me wants the luxury of life;

A part of me wants to weep for others, a part of me actually rejoices when others suffer ( especially those whom I judge and think should know the Lord through their sufferings)

A part of me wants to sacrifice, a part of me wants – WANTS all things;

A part of me wants to forgive and a part of me wants to hold on to grudge;

A part of me wants to pray always and a part of me rejects that plea of my spirit;

A part of me wants to be close to God and a part of me wants everything to revolve over me (and rejoices at being praised and receives the glory that belongs to God!!);

A part of me is known by others ( those who think i am The perfect Jesse ) and a part of me (especially my family members and satan himself ) knows what are my struggles;

A part of me is the complete opposite of the other that’s why I battle the struggle of being a half hearted Christian !!

Father help me to fight this battle and be victorious over it ! I want and desire to be a whole – hearted disciple of Christ -Your Son !!

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